02/21/24
this website thing has been a good distraction from the stress of moving! maybe too good. making me forget to pack like i need to be doing LOL
this website thing has been a good distraction from the stress of moving! maybe too good. making me forget to pack like i need to be doing LOL
right now life is a crushing tidal wave, but i know it will calm down at least slightly in a few weeks when we complete our move (my first time living out of my home state! how crazy) but right now it is absolutely hectic.
you know what... dare i say it, things are kinda looking up. i am more stressed than i have been in a long while (many identity and existential crises as of late........) but i have been forcing myself out of my comfort zone at gunpoint and i can tell that it's good for me. i have been lying to myself for years saying it isn't worth it but stubborn as i am i have to admit that it actually kinda is. don't get me wrong it fucking sucks shit and is painful and uncomfortable and exhausting as fuck but i've finally met a few people here (since moving states) and that feels really, REALLY good. friends of friends, not friends of my own really, but that's not nothing. i'm pround of it.